Pregnancy test

I know it's there. But can I please imagine it's not? My son is 8 months old and I can barely afford to live as it is.. I fucked up really fucking badly and I'm so fucking scared now. I'm praying it's a false positive but with my period being over two months late chances are it's not false .... I don't know who to talk to this about. I'm praying it's false.. I can't do this