Vent/rant thanks for reading sorry for ranting😂

I’m STRUGGLING with how to feed this baby and I mean like I think about it all day every day. I go back and fourth between formula or breastfeeding because I feel like a bad mom if I don’t breastfeed but my struggle is that I don’t really want to breastfeed. I know the whole “you should try it” and what not but I have absolutely zero interest in wanting to do it. I feel like I have no support from anyone in my life with breastfeeding (my entire family is full of formula babies. Mom, sister, aunts, cousins, etc.) and every time I bring it up my husband gets annoyed with me because I keep changing my mind and my mom doesn’t even acknowledge breastfeeding just straight to talking about which bottles and formula I should use or when I’m going to buy my baby breeza (formula mixer for those that don’t know what it is). I also feel like I’m gonna get shit from all the nurses and midwives at the hospital if I choose not to breast feed. Why is this such a difficult topic!? I’m sorry for my rant/vent I’m just having serious internal struggles and I feel like no one understands where I’m coming from or they give me the worst freaking advice ever (horror stories about starving babies and bleeding nipples) part of me also feels like my husband wants me to breastfeed so it’s one less thing he will have to do if that makes sense. He’s a great guy and is gonna be a great dad but I feel like he wants the easy out and is gonna expect me to do 100% of everything when this baby gets here (that makes him sound horrible but I promise he’s not. It’s probably just my own insecurities and fears about being a mom coming to light) anyways thanks for listening. I’m sure I’ll figure out what the hell I’m doing one day but for now I’ll keep searching for the answer that is never going to come on it’s own😂😭