So today I hate myself, my husband and I have been together 12 years in April married 6! We were together 9 years before we had our little girl. He took a lot of convincing he always wanted kids but kept saying we weren’t financially stable! 3 long years it took me. So when he said he was happy to try for baby number two and probably final baby I was overjoyed but here I am 8 months in no BFP I’m heart broken. Our first pregnancy was unplanned but ended with a MC this was the catalyst for him wanting to try for our daughter after my D&C we fell pregnant the very next cycle. So here I am AF cramps finding comfort with junk food and tears, what makes me angry at myself is seeing all these wonderful woman still trying for their first. Who have struggled far longer and have been through far worse and here I am baby upstairs wallowing in self pity 😢 so because I won’t be getting my BFP this month I’m sending all you lovely lot all my baby dust and positivity good luck guys x