💪 back to pumping exclusively. I'm 2 almost 3 days PP and tried doing the whole breastfeeding thing. What I have learned: I suck at getting babies to latch, I can't get enough boob in their mouth. I also learned that I basically have to have a third arm to do it, one to hold baby, one to hold my boob and one to help baby's mouth latch. It's impossible, frustrating and I just can't do it. My poor nipples are blistered from two days of trying. On night two she was on my boob for five hours straight. Not worth it.

So I got home from the hospital and decided it's time to go back to my pump. Put it on and instant relief, it feels so familiar (I exclusively pumped for ten months with my first.) My milk is coming in beautifully, getting 1oz combine from each session right now. Baby is getting a full ounce per feed at the moment and she's clearly filling up better.

Everyone says pumping is so hard, but I think breastfeeding is worse. I'm getting a new pump through insurance and can't wait to meet my new pump.

I don't worry about the "bond". my first daughter and I are bff's. We bonded just fine. I don't worry about baby because she's now getting my milk regardless and it's what counts. To any momma's who feel like they are a let down bc they are pumping rather than ebf, you got this. Learn to love that wee woo sound of the pump, it's also a break time excuse. A pumping session is my Facebook scroll, eat a snack in peace time. You're still a superhero. Enjoy it!