I had severe pregnancy depression and PPD. I thought it would go away but now 2 years later its still there. I have severe guilt and anxiety about leaving my daughter to go to work. It doesnt help that my job has long irregular hours and last week i had to leave for 10 days. After this project we will be shipped out for weeks at a time. The more i think about it the more i wish i could stay home, but even when i was at home for that whole year i had severe anxiety from not earning money and for not doing more for my career.

I really dont know how to make this feeling stop. I almost passed out today from the overwhelming feeling of being a shitty mom abd beind bad at my job.

Is this just my life now? Is this how everyone feels?