im diagnosed with depression and lately i been doing bad im two months clean , ive opened up with my boyfriend of 6 months bout this n hes told me that to let him k if i need help or anything to make me feel better hell help me , within theses couple days i been so down n feeling suicidal today i let him k i didnt feel my best n we havent been on the same page , i tired to OD n i told him i took sum n he jus told me that i shouldnt be doing it over a guy n that its childish once he said that my heart broke into million pieces i ran into the restroom n jus broke down n cry i just really couldng believe wha he said to me when he knows what has happened to me n he knows im diagnosed w :( i need help knowong how to handle thw issue i really dont k wha to do bkus this isnt the first time i tired doing this together n im told him bout it but i feel like im getting blamed bout it when im trying to explain him how im feeling

P S A i apologized to him bout today that im sorry that he has to put up w theses types of things that sometimes i can’t handle it n he just told me to go back to sleep that its too late this& update this morning i woke up throwing up he slept over last night meanwhile i was throwing up n picking it up he jus went back asleep , after i cleaned myself up i went back to bed and i asked him if he can move over that i dont wann be far bu the trash can n hes reply’s i wasnt the one who tried swallowing 30 pills u go over me i was speechless all i said was you sure are so helpful n i left to sleep in my livingroom