MUM GUILT AND CONCERNS!!

Hi all,

I'm not sure what I'm wanting to get out of this, maybe I just want to write my feelings down.

I had my daughter when I was 20 years old and had only been with her father for a bit over a year. I always told him I wanted a big family and he was fine with that.Now that my daughter is 13 months I really want to start trying for a second since everything is on track and life is going good. The only thing is, my partner now isn't too sure that this is the right time for him and we should wait a bit longer.

I'm feeling so guilty for wanting this and feel like I'll be taking some of my attention away from her when the new baby arrives. I'm an only child so I'm not sure what it's like to have siblings and have always had my mum to myself so I'm worried my daughter will feel left out or pushed aside which wouldn't be the case at all of course. On the other hand, I'm feeling guilty that if we wait then she won't have a sibling close in age that she will be able to grow up and experience things with.

My other concern is, I co sleep with her and have since birth since she has always been a very bad sleeper when she's not with me and I don't know how I'd go with having another baby and still having her in bed with me considering I'll be constantly getting up for the baby and most likely waking her. Has anyone experienced this and have any suggestions? Did you move your first child into their own room? Were you able to continue to co sleep with your first and have the second in a cot in your room? I'm not planning on co sleeping with my second.

Did you feel guilty through your whole pregnancy with your second?

Sorry for the long post, I guess I'm just wanting to know that all the things I'm experiencing are normal and it will all work out.