Freshman in college

Courtney Averie • tired as hell😴

So I’m a freshman in college and this is my second semester. The amount of drama I have endured at this school is crazy. I feel like I’m stuck in high school. And with everything conflict I always try and sit back and wonder if I’m the issue but the more I’ve tried to understand I find that 9/10 it’s not me. I feel like I need to associate with better people but I just can’t find any. I feel like I have no one some days. Like I feel like I can’t be myself. For example I left a place early and told my friend that I was tired and didn’t want to wait and she said okay but sounded upset. So I asked if it was cool and she said yeah see you tmrw. So I checked on her later and she flat out ignored me. Then I call and she declined. I’m sick of being iced out everytime I don’t want to do something. And then something else similar happened with a different friend. I honestly don’t understand. I’m just sad and lost. I wanted to hangout time for Friday night and go out on Saturday but at this point I feel like I can’t because I have nobody. College has been a horrible transition for me. It seems like I can’t keep girl friends to save my life. It’s depressing...