I went to a fraternity part with a few of my guy friends who are members. I only had two or three standard drinks (which is nothing for me). Last thing I remember is taking my third shot around 11:30 pm and then waking up in the hospital at 6 am. I was found naked in the mud outside and apparently had been missing for thirty or more minutes. The nurses informed me that when I got to the hospital, I was aggressive and kicked the security guard in the balls (mind you, I’m not usually an aggressive drunk). I’m pretty sure I was drugged but because I was aggressive and covered in mud, the hospital didn’t run any tests on me. When they called my mother (I’m only 19 and she’s my emergency contact) she asked for a rape kit and they refused. They also showered me while I was blacked out. I went to the infirmary the next day and they told me there was evidence of sexual activity but they couldn’t do anything because the nurses at the hospital already bathed me. So essentially, I don’t remember if I was raped or not but every time I try to have sex while drinking or stoned, I start to panic. How am I supposed to cope with something I don’t even remember?