Being a foster mom

Anasia • City kid to middle of nowhere lady. Foster mom pregnant with her 🌈baby

Randomly in the past 8days 4 former kids of mine showed up to surprise me. Well 2 let me know they were coming but like 10 minutes before. It's almost if they knew I just had another BFN, yet I never talk to them about it of course. I'm crying and all emotional right now after the last one left an hour ago. Why can't I have one of my own? Waiting on my rainbow🌈 baby. TTC, 35 next year. Any words of encouragement welcome. Next ovu Fri/Sat.