Do I deserve a semicolon tattoo?

I kind of want to get one but I don't think I deserve it. What I went/am going through isn't as bad compared to many other people. Like I didn't attempt suicide and I didn't even come up with a plan but I was constantly thinking about how I do not deserve to live. I felt like a burden and a waste of space but although I didn't want to live I didn't come up with a plan. There was a time when I was hiking to the Sun Gate in Machu Picchu where I seriously wondered if I should jump off. The trail was narrow and there was a huge drop off on one side. I didn't jump because there were too many trees and bushes that would have caught me. But I still don't know if I deserve to get the tattoo because I didn't actually try to jump off. Would it be wrong for me to get it? I'm not old enough right now but I sometimes draw it on myself but then feel guilty about it