Sometimes I really just hate myself. I don't understand why I can't just have a higher sex drive like a normal fucking person. It feels like my boyfriend's sex drive is so high and mine just isn't and it's so frustrating. I hate rejecting him all the time but I also just don't want to do it. I just don't. I have no interest in it anymore.

This makes me so mad and frustrated and sad.

7+ years being sexually active and I've only ever orgasmed TWICE during sex! Once with my ex and once with my current boyfriend like 4 years ago. Other than that, never. I'm so tired of it. Honestly I've started to hate sex just because it frustrates me so much.

We've talked about it, we've tried a million different positions, he's tried every move imaginable when giving me head, we've tried watching porn, I do masturbate, I tell him what I like and don't like and nothing. Wtf is wrong with me?! I hate my body for being like this.

It's not like we've never had good sex. There have plenty of times that even without finishing, it was still pretty spectacular but there's still always a little part of me that isn't fully satisfied since I didn't reach peak orgasm.

We can't talk to anyone else about it so I don't even know what to do anymore. And I do feel so bad that we rarely ever do it because I know I'm just not meeting his sexual needs and he's probably frustrated about it too. Honestly at this point I wouldn't even blame him if he cheated on me just to get some sex.... 😒