Here's the situation: This was a bad relationship from the start. I never even wanted to be with him, but basically my family always encouraged me to have extremely low standards and would make me feel like a bad person for having any boundaries at all, so here I am living with my "ex" (that word doesn't even feel right since I was only in this because of pressure and guilt) while I find a new place to live. I was also pressured into having a baby with this guy 🤦‍♀️. He's been verbally abusive, raises his voice, slams, has broken a few things but never anything too serious like hitting me or something. I've also cut ties with my family.

I've had a dream that he's strangling me twice. There was nothing environmentally off like the blankets being over my head or something. What does this mean? I'm very spiritual; I do spiritual studies multiple times a day. I'm definitely afraid of him; he's very arrogant and I know he thinks he could get away with something like that.