It messed up my head

So it's a strange one.

I had a strong feeling once that someone was pregnant, found out a few days later when the feeling wasn't going away that it was a friend of my friends.

Well, last night I had a dream that I had a baby, and I've always been very strictly childfree in choice. But in the dream I looked down at 'my' baby and felt all those motherly feelings. And I kissed the baby and looked away, but when I looked back down I kept telling myself, "no, it's just a kitten, just a kitten baby. I don't want a baby, just a kitten" and it was a kitten, not a baby anymore.

Lmao I'm so confused. Obviously I love cats more than I want a child. I also had a fur baby that I still love and miss xc

But I'm on birth control so I pray that wasn't a sign.

I'm kind of hoping someone I know is going to tell me they're pregnant soon so I can relax.

Note that my mother would commonly have dreams that would happen within days, but certain details would be slightly off. Like the color of a car. She also said when she dreams of pregnancy, someone is dying. And when she dreams of someone dying, usually someone is pregnant.

Just a weird thing, and I think similar things have happened to me, just not exactly the same way.

Idk.

Idk of anyone can find meaning in this, I really just wanted to talk about it somewhere anyway.