i don’t want to sound selfish because i know there is loss of life occurring and this is a devastating time in the world. i’m just asking for prayers and advice to help me find peace and closure. schools are potentially being shut down till the end of the year due to the coronavirus and i’m a senior. i had my last day of highschool and i didn’t even realize it and i don’t remember it. it wasn’t a significant day of celebration like it was supposed to be. no prom. no grauduation. there can always be a plan b for prom. i can still get in my dress and take pictures but i’m sad about graduation. i feel like there’s no closure senior year/childhood. we just do online school and then one day we stop and go into adulthood. no goodbye. i wish the community would do like a parade for all the seniors to walk in to celebrate these past 13 years but gatherings aren’t allowed. i understand this is for everyone’s best interest, but i’m just really struggling. i’ve looked forward to this for years and have watched and cheered on past previous classes. i look back on the class of 2019 and 2018 instagram pictures and i’m just so sad because last year when i saw those posts i looked at them and i thought “i can’t wait for my turn” and now i look at them and realize that’s something i’ll never have. i realize this will all past and in a year i won’t care about graduation once i’m happy at college, but right now this is really hard. i just want closure and i feel helpless. i can take pictures in my cap and gown but there’s no significant moment to close out this period of life. i’m just so sad.