Struggling

I’m struggling with my personality. I think my looks are fine and think i’m pretty good looking. But my personality is so bad. Idk if it’s anxiety, if i’m on a spectrum, i’m just very confused and struggling socially. I have a hard time being myself and laughing. I’m very prideful. I’m just all around super weird and it’s affecting all of my relationships with people. I’ve never had someone been in love with me. I’m 23, never had a serious relationship and i pushed away all my friends. idk what tf is going on with me :( i have a relationship now but even in that i feel like he’s losing interest cuz i’m boring af! ik i’m not deep down but this fucning anxieth is making me wanna lose it. pls help.