Over a month ago I suffered with a little bleeding...

A week later marking february 26th my little bean left me as I had a home birth at 12 weeks. It was the toughest and most painful experience!

3 days before that I saw my little bean🥺... heart at an exceptional rate! The dr prescribed me some antibiotics for infection and those weren't safe for a pregnant woman. I didnt know as it's my first baby... unfortunately due to that I suffered a silent miscarriage and my HCG dropped drastically... 💔

The reason for my post is that it has been so hard to except this and say goodbye to my little one, from the very start, I was petrified as it was a suprise pregnancy but through all the shit I've been through hes been there for me, I love him so much and to have lost this part of hubby's and my life was terrible!

On march 26th, 2020, is my birthday...

It will mark 1 month for my baby being gone and I would like to dedicate this to my little bean.

Mommy loves you much, and no matter what I will never forget you. You took me through the toughest part of my life which tore me apart from my parents but you kept me strong and going and for that I am truly grateful to you my little one. You supported me ... you gave mama strength. One day dad and I will be with you and continue loving you and we will ine day play with you. We will pray for you and visit you as much as we can. And I will always visit you you in my dreams loving and playing with you ♥️ ... always remember mama will never replace you, she will just be giving you siblings😪♥️

This has been really hard but it's me excepting my loss and not imagining that my baby is still alive.... the biggest realization that my little bean is gone is when the gyny actually cut the sack and tissue open and brought my baby out💔....

HOW DID SOME OF YOU GET THROUGH THIS AND HOW LING DID IT TAKE TO DECIDE TO TRY AGAIN?

To all the moms who have love and lost. May you continue to be strong and strong and may you be bless with lots of little babies🌈🌈🌈...