Am I wrong?

Wren • Wife💍 mama to 2 angels 7/10/18 + 10/20/21👼 🌈rainbow baby due November 13 2022🌈

Even with everything going on I still want to be pregnant more than anything, I know it's going to be miserable and most places are closed but I've been trying for nearly 2 years. It's heart breaking every month to get my period, it's even harder coming up on the 2 year mark of my miscarriage. Though my family says I should wait and I have my whole life to start a family I want nothing more than a son or daughter to love and take care of, I'm ready to drop my life for a child, I'm ready for no sleep, I'm ready for dirty diapers and messes so gross you want to puke, but sometimes I feel like I'm being selfish, especially with covid-19 going around I feel like I'm being selfish for still wanting a child but I was ready 2 years ago to drop everything as soon as I got that positive test. Am I selfish for this? Is it wrong of me to want to be pregnant with what's going on now?