I want to have a baby. My husband wants to have a baby. But for us to have one I have to fix myself first. There is too many medical problems with my body that is keeping us from having our beautiful little sunflower. 😞 I feel like I’m failing as a woman and a wife. I’ve talked to my husband about it and he makes me feel so loved and understood. But it’s still my fault.

I am about to go on a medication to fix what the doctor thinks is the main reason but it’s not a definite. And she said that once I’m on it we will more then likely get pregnant within a couple weeks but we can’t. If I get pregnant while on the medication I have to stop the meds and can’t fix myself first. We have decided to get some birth control for this and she has talked to me about getting on the pill as well while we go through this process. But BC doesn’t do well with my body so it will just be condoms.

I just want to be normal and not have to be at the doctor to fix my body just to live. I hate taking medication and I hate that I have to spend so much time and money and energy at the doctors.