Low spirits

I’m feeling so down and out right now and to make it worse I feel so alone. Every time we get one step closer I feel like we get pushed two steps back. I have NO one to talk to bc I don’t personally know anyone that has gone through it is going through this. I’m part of a couple of apps but most of the time when I post I literally get zero comments. I feel like I’m at my breaking point. We are in the middle of our last round of trying pills. This cycle I took letrozole for 8 days. I’m currently sitting at the dr waiting to have my second egg check through ultrasound. If this doesn’t work we move to at home injections but bc of the virus crisis everything will be put on hold till it’s over. I feel like I need a break but at the same time I feel like my clock is ticking fast and I don’t have any time to take any breaks. My cycles are already at least half a month longer than normal so I don’t get all 12 chances a year. I get about 4 or 5. We have already lost one pregnancy in the beginning as well. None of my family is really supportive either. They all think I’m crazy for trying bc I already have 2 kids but my husband doesn’t have any of his own and I always wanted 3 or 4 in my life anyways. This depression is really kicking my butt right now and I don’t know what to do, how to feel, or who I can talk to. I know I’m not the only person in the world going through this but I certainly feel like it having no one to encourage me, help me push through, or just vent to.