Two years ago we gave birth to our son and said goodbye the same day. I was 20 weeks pregnant and my body went into labor.

Flash forward we are trying to conceive for another and this time things are super weird. Two month in no pregnancy. Normal for some but not for me, so I chucked it up to stress of all the complications and anxiety I will have.

I’ve had three pregnancy before and all with on time trying. I told myself let it just happen since the virus stuff is happening anyways it might not be a good time to try.

This month I wasn’t really following my app but still logging in my daily stuff for the future. Last night I had serious pain after sex. It reminded me of the pain I had the day before we found out I went into labor. I couldn’t sleep, it lasted for 30mins. Today I woke up fine, went out for some fresh air with my son and kicked the ball

Around, I started to feel some pressure again.

I want to call my doctor and ask if something could be wrong. It’s way too early to know if I am pregnant since my ovulation was five days ago apparently...

My mind is going through so much right now. I’m slowly losing it. I can lose another child, I think I would fall into a deep Depression again.