Has anyone put their baby up for adoption before? But kept their previous children.....

I'm 24 weeks pregnant with my 4th baby, totally unplanned and my youngest was only 10 months when I fell pregnant. I have 7 & 5 year old daughters too.

I just have no bond with this baby, I know I won't be able to cope, especially seeing as my youngest still wakes throughout the night, my husband works 6 days a week for 14hrs a day!

I'm just not ready for another baby, I don't want another baby, I feel nothing emotionally when I feel her kick or move except huge guilt towards my other children and especially my youngest as she's only 15 months and she's still a baby herself!! I want to watch her grow up and she won't understand why mummy can't give her as many cuddles if I have a new baby around the house. She's still very clingy to me and I don't want our bond to go.

I'm going to end up being and awful mum to my 3 children I've already got because I'm going to be tired, grumpy, stressy. Not be able to find time for all of them!

Also I don't want to bring a baby into this world and not give it the love it deserves, I have no more love to give and I totally know that! I just want my life to go back to normal with my happy home and 3 children, the way it was :(

Please only answer genuinely and not to hurl loads of abuse at me! I've found it extremely difficult to even post this in the first place but I just needed somewhere to turn!