Thinking about the what if’s 😞

Currently going through a miscarriage. So many mixed emotions no one around me understands. I feel really sad that I feel in a way mad at God for bringing me this baby and then taking it away in the blink of an eye. I’m not blaming god I just have this anger/sadness and I hate feeling that. 😔 this baby made me so happy the few weeks I was pregnant I don’t know how to explain what I felt. I hope I never forget him/her ever! I feel guilty I feel mad I feel sad I feel so many things rn. 💔