😔 in need of emotional help during pregnancy

Im pregnant. I’m feeling ugly, fat... an elephant... even though I’m small (5’1” 114 pounds when not pregnant) and with 29 weeks I got 8 pounds.

I feel nothing attractive to my husband lately and I can’t barely be naked next to him, I feel ashamed. I’ve been allergic to my hair dye, so my hair looks s*hitty. My clothings don’t fit me. He always tells me that I’m beautiful that I’m this and that and tries to cheer me up but he’s having some problems to orgasm with me lately or he has to “work on himself to get aroused” and all of this is just making me feel the ugliest, nastiest, non desirable woman in this world. I know he has been masturbating (I never got mad at it but now I want to cry just to think about it) and he’s not so into sex with me. He’s a little big and we don’t find good positions now that I have a belly (and he has one too so we can’t reach each other so well), he does not like doggy stile, he just can’t find a good position for himself and he’s scared to hurt me. I know he’s not cheating at all... he’s lovable and a great husband and I know he’s trying his best to make everything right and nice.

I’m even scared to make him fed up with my sadness about it and make him be even more away sexually from me. I’ve been saying that I’m sad because of the situation of the coronavirus... I’ve been making up stories to don’t tell him the real truth about what’s going on, cause I don’t want to pressure him.

But I can’t stop thinking that I look ridiculous right now and he does not want me sexually.

I just can’t wait to give birth and try to make myself look a little better. I love my baby, it was very hard to get this miracle, I had several miscarriages before, but I’m feeling terribly bad with myself. I’m depressed and quite feeling lonely with that because I don’t have a way to fix this sensation right now.