You have no idea the amount of damage you've caused me. You took away everything I am as a woman and a wife. You've destroyed me in ways and caused pain I didn't know exist. You destroyed my imagine on marriage and family. You've betrayed not only me and our trust but our marriage and children. You were selfish, you put your needs before me and our children.. you destroyed my own imagine of my body. I became a mother to give our family the biggest blessing. I gave you a beautiful daughter, and a handsome son. You came home to me everyday, and lied to me. You came home everyday and hide things from me. You came home everyday and pretended I was enough when you was actually proud to admit that "my stretch Mark's disgusted you" I fought hard for everyone of those stretch marks remember, I never got them with our old son who passed away. I viewed those stretch marks from OUR daughter and OUR son as an accomplishment. Until, you mentioned that you'd rather watch porn because their bodies aren't damaged, until you told me... flirting with attractive women was more appealing, until you told me my vagina isn't the same after you saw children come out of it. You could have let me go, you didn't need to destroy me further but you did. 6 years together, and you've hide, lied, and betrayed me while I busted my ass to provide for us, I died LITERALLY died to carry our daughter they had to shock my lifeless body back to life and instead of viewing me as what I am a warrior, you decided I wasn't enough anymore. You decided the nurse, who fought to save my life was the perfect person to sleep with while I was home recovering. struggled to carry our son, and you then decided that sleeping with the speedway worker 4 times a week was the best way to relieve your stress because "I was stretched out" you've hid this from me for years. You've acted like we were fine, that you "loved" me and our family. Then, it all comes out..... you've cheated the whole time, you've betrayed me then you decided to blame ME for YOUR cheating because I'm not attractive. I'm not attractive because my breast are saggy from feeding your children while you slept all night, and cheated the next day. I'm not attractive because I carried children for you, that YOU wanted. I'm not attractive because I gave my all.

Everyday, you came home to a home cook meal, a clean house, clean laundry. You woke up at 6:30 am with your clothes sat out, breakfast waiting, lunch packed car running and warm.

I haven't been the perfect wife. Sometimes, when I've only slept 5 hours a WEEK I'd get cranky, but even when I got "bitchy" you forced me to have sex with you. You told me, and I repeat "you'll give it, or I'll take it"

But now, I've found my worth. I've found that I may be destroyed but I'll pick up every piece and rebuild who I am. I'll find my confidences again. I'll be better than before. I'll be the best, and you'll be a weekend father. Enjoy everything you've done, enjoy your life...

You don't know this yet, but I'm leaving. I'll never come back. Goodbye to the man I onced loved I'm learning to love my destroyed body and disgusting "milk jugs" I'm learning to love the new me.

You're right, I'll never look like "the pornstars" who can "take a real mans dick in their ass" but you'll never be a real man. You'll never learn how to appreciate a man who gave their all to you. You'll never truly be happy.