Hiya! I feel like this might be a topic people rarely talk about that I’d like some advice on?

So one of my turn-ons in a sexual scenario is being more dominant and controlling but I naturally feel super shy when I’m touching my man. I used to think it was because I was “grossed out” by male bodies, but I think now it’s more just of a lack of knowledge. I’d like to know more about how to give blowjobs and handjobs and start to feel comfortable with myself and my skill level. I’ve found that going down on a partner is a HUGE turn on for me, but in past relationships I’ve been negatively criticized for things that I do - or don’t do - while giving either a blowjob or a handjob. Anyone have any tips? 😁