I have super bad coping mechanisms.... and recently I’ve started c*tting again after being about 2 years clean (with a few small relapses) I’ll do anything that hurts me when I’m in distress to make it stop (even though it really just makes me numb) c*tting, b*rning, biting, scratching, even hitting myself until my legs or arms are throbbing. I’m not concerned for myself, but my boyfriend is. Ive tried those “things to do besides S*lf h*rm” methods but it doesn’t do the same thing. It’s like I have to feel pain to feel better. I don’t know what to do... I don’t know if I want to stop... but I know I probably need to.