3 Triage Trips in One Week

Feeling defeated and scared. One minute I cry and melt into a puddle of sadness. The next I’m shaking it off and reminding myself that I need to stay calm for baby.

I keep having heavy bleeding plus I lost a ton of my mucus plug in between bleeding episodes and no one has been able to figure out why yet. Literally don’t know what other tests are possible at this point.

So today I started steroid treatments to help develop his lungs. At this point we aren’t planning for but rather preparing for preterm labor. I’m 32+6, first baby. Steroids will help if he’s early and won’t harm him whether he’s early or decides to stick around. Win win, I guess?

No family nearby. Best friend is just as far as family. No one I know has had this happen either so they really don’t know what to say, which is fine. I don’t expect anyone to have any miracle words by any means. However them ALL asking me the same redundant questions about what symptoms I’m having, what I was doing leading up to it, their Dr.Google ideas, etc is frustrating. I feel guilty saying that cause I KNOW they mean well. But like, how can I politely tell them the nurses and doctors have quizzed me enough without them feeling like I’m pushing them away? And like when they KNOW I’m still in triage dealing with it why are they all calling me at once after I explicitly say “I’ll update once I know more”. I hate feeling like it’s time to just keep things hush hush anymore 😢