okay so, i’m sixteen, i live in texas with very conservative parents, and i haven’t been a virgin since december.

my parents don’t know i’m sexually active, and i also tend to have a lot of sex. if i had to guess, i would say about at least 10 times a week.

i’ve also been on the pill for about four months because of my painful cramps, and to my knowledge i’ve never missed a pill and i always take it on time. my partner also pulls out everytime.

i am well aware that sex has risks and i should just come to terms with it, but recently, more than ever, i’ve been having bad anxiety about becoming pregnant. i have very intense anxious tendencies because i’ve been having panic attacks since i was 12. i think i’m especially afraid because my mother became accidentally pregnant with me when she was 18. she says she was on birth control at the time too, and that her and my father used condoms. i’m not so sure if that’s true because it’s so unlikely, or if she just messed up her bc methods. either way i’m just afraid of becoming pregnant. i don’t want to end-up like most of my family becoming teen mothers (not that there’s anything wrong with that, i just can’t imagine that path for myself).

i guess i’m kind of just venting, but yea. i’ve had no symptoms of pregnancy so far, but i’ve heard stories of people being pregnant for months and not knowing. it’s just extra stressful because in texas, abortion laws are restricted, and i’m deathly afraid of what my parents would do if i got pregnant.

i’ve read that the pill is 98% effective with perfect use, and by the scientific standpoint of “perfect use” i do take it perfectly. i’m on sprintec and i set an alarm everyday. but i’m still feeling anxious.

do any of you have fears about birth control failing or anything similar?

(sorry if it’s long or whiny, i just wanted to rant. thank you)