Last night my boyfriend of nearly 3 years and I broke up.

Last night I felt relieved because deep down I knew I deserved better.

He would always put the blame onto me, make me feel like I was in the wrong.

He would say I was manipulating him but now I see it was the other way around.

We spent 24/7 together.

Now that it's been almost 24 hours it's finally sinking in that he won't be back and I'm all alone again.

My bed feels so empty and big without him. I keep rolling over and wondering why he isn't there.

My room reminds me of him, everything reminds me of him.

As much as our relationship was toxic I'm still going to miss him.

He was my first true love.

We were looking for a house and even wanted a baby.

I knew I secretly wasn't ready but even tho it was wrong I thought if we had a child that everything will be better.

He had a son and I loved him dearly. It breaks my heart that I won't see him again.

Please someone tell me it gets better.

I've got no friends and I don't really talk to my family.

I don't know how or even if I can get through this.