Still can't stop thinking about it

Vi

When I was about 6 or 7 years old I accidentally pulled a baby's arms out of socket.

We were at the baby sitter and the baby kept reaching up, like he wanted me to pick him up. I reached down, grabbed his arms and pulled him up to me. He immediately started screaming. He was in intense pain and wouldn't stop crying.

The baby sitter screamed at me "what did you do to him!!?" I told her and she called the mom to pick him up. The baby sitter was very upset with me, and the baby, his name was Adam, went to the hospital.

They popped his arms back in the socket. The mom came drop the baby off the next day and just stared an evil stare at me. I never meant to hurt the baby. I've thought about this over and over again. I'm 31 years old and I still think about it. It happened so quick.

I don't know why but it's almost 1:00 in the morning and I can't sleep, I'm thinking about it. Anyone else deal with something similar?