I need advice...asapšŸ˜”

iā€™ve been dating this boy for close to 8 months now...he broke up with my around 6 and then we got back together a few weeks later. the first time we broke up, was because he couldnā€™t handle not being able to see me everyday, however, before he called it off, he spent about 2 weeks not answering me and if he did, it would be ā€œsorry. goodnightā€ or something along those lines. very short, dry, and you could tell he wasnā€™t interested anymore! he went from facetiming me every night to not doing it at all. he called it off after two weeks and he missed me a lot and proved that he changed and so he got back together with me a few weeks later. itā€™s been about a month i guess and things were better until 3 days ago...he got back into the old cycle of where heā€™d ghost me...and not call me...i know something is bound to happen again aka being broken up with again. iā€™m trying to prepare myself now but i really donā€™t feel worth it. he was the only person i really had anymore because everyone else left my life rather they were a close friend or just a friend. my best friend leaves me for her boyfriend and now i sit in my room and write music and sing because i have no other way to cope with my feelings/express myself. i feel like i donā€™t mean anything to anyone. and trust me, iā€™m such a positive person! and i really do keep my head up, itā€™s just kind of getting rough right now because of problems that i was already currently facing along with my toxic ass boyfriend. please helpšŸ„ŗ. i need encouragement, advice, or something. iā€™m sorry if iā€™m a burden on any one of you, itā€™s just this is really hard for me šŸ˜”. i swear this is all i ever deal with anytime i finally get happy again...and it sucks. itā€™s like it never stays good.