I'm always longing for love

I am exasperated ladies. I never had anyone who truly loves me. Growing up in a dysfunctional family, being cheated on whenever I got into a relationship. Or if anyone tries to get to know me they only want one thing from me: sex.

I feel like I'm just a temporary woman. Someone who is such a people pleaser that I tolerate them walking over me until they decided I'm not a fun toy to play with anymore. I'm worth nothing more than a pretty face.

The moment anyone shows interest in me, I cling on. To that little hope that they would be different. I don't want them because I love them, but I am in need of love myself. Relying on drugs, alcohol, or cigarettes to keep myself going. To be happier, I don't even know anymore. I am desperate. I feel like I will forever be alone.

What should I do...