Long story short, I’m a virgin. I am religious, but that’s not the only reason I’ve held off. I only want to have sex with the one person I’m going to be with for the rest of my life. I value sex very highly. And I would like for my future husband to be the same. It upsets me to think that he would have done the same, super intimate actions that we are doing with many other people. It takes away the spark of it all for me. My current boyfriend (been together for a year) has a body count of seven.. my ex before him had only 1 and it took me forever to get over that number... what I don’t get though is he told me not long ago that he’s never even made out with anyone. How can you have sex with seven different people, but never have made out with anyone?? I know he wouldn’t lie and tell me a higher number than what is real because he knows it upsets me, but deep down somewhere I still hope that is the case. The fact that I would be his eighth breaks me. There’s nothing special about that. Nothing. I really don’t know how to deal with this. I honestly think it’s something that will bother me our entire relationship regardless of how far we go. I don’t know..