Butt lifter

Hi everyone I am very insecure about my butt. I have the biggest thighs and a body type that u would expect to have a large bottom. I love my things but I don’t have a matching butt which is something I struggle with everyday !! If I had a butt everything would be ok. I wear butt lifters but I am so embarrassed because its not the real me and I’m scared for someone I date to expect one thing but get a totally different other when I don’t have it on !!! I don’t have money for a bbl but it has been my dream to get one. I don’t know what to do I’ve tried the gym and eating healthy fats but nothing works