Urgently need some thoughts

Background: I’m only 16, still live with my parents, can not in any way online shop or anything, my parents go through everything I buy and look at on online stores and there is no possible way any of my friends could help me and I have no siblings.

I am in desperate need of a vibrator or dildo, just anything to help me get an orgasm and squirt. Some people say to use an electric toothbrush but I don’t have one and my parents say there’s no need for them.

So:

Anyone have any tips and tricks that I could use pleaseeeeeeee I really need it. I feel how close I get to squirting and having an orgasm but I never get there and I know this will help and if it doesn’t I could at least try so yeah, what do people use instead??

P.s, my shower is right next to my parents room so I can’t use the shower head.... I’ve heard it’s great though 😐