So I’m only 14 and my boyfriend is 15, I love him more than anyone can imagine...there’s this long story that I’m gonna try to shorten, so we weren’t together till end of janurary. Before we got together he randomly got off Xbox and wasn’t replying to my messages. I have really bad anxiety and some really bad thoughts...so I was flipping out all night long I was so worried something had happened to him...the next day I had a message from him that said he got in trouble for not doing is school (were both homeschooled) and so he had his phone taken away and he didn’t know when he would get it back.

I was worried and told him how much I flipped out and what I was thinking he left for awhile and apparently told his mom about what he was thinking cause he was worried. It sounds sweet but his mom texted mine and I had to tell my mom that he thought the wrong things so my mom wouldn’t yell at me for having bad thoughts cause she usually does. After that his mom was upset I shared my feelings with him and said we needed a break. So we were going to have a 2 week break/ 3 week break cause I had a cruise and I wouldn’t be able to talk to them on there. But he didn’t care and wanted to talk to me anyway. We secretly talked on snap and then he finally told me he loved me and he’s my boyfriend now...but we got caught before the cruise...and his mom extended it to a month and my heart was broken. The cruise was miserable...on Valentine’s Day I posted a bunch of pics of my friends saying I love you on my close friends list, my Instagram has always glitched out and posted it on my actual story. So his mom saw it and she was upset that I put a pic of him with a bunch of other people on my story! She doesn’t allow us to talk anymore... but he being the stubborn person he is started talking to me anyway...on discord ( a app for gamers) we talked for about 2 weeks but my mom caught us. She didn’t tell his mom but I got in massive trouble. I got all my electronics taken away. I just got my phone back. But I wanna die I can’t do this I can’t live without him. He’s the only thing that ever made me happy, he says once he gets his drivers license he will see me again. There’s no way cause I won’t have my drivers license till a couple of years. He says he will find a way and do anything to see me again. I just want us to be happy and he has really bad anxiety. And I’m worried about him. What can I do to keep these feelings for him? And is there any way I can try and help this situation out and maybe talk to him again?