Broken Beyond Repair

I got a notification today from my BabyBump app saying I'm now 13 weeks pregnant...I had an abortion 6 weeks ago. I can't bring myself to delete the <a href="">pregnancy apps</a> on my phone and I can't hold myself together when I think about it, talk about it, or see things that remind me of it. I feel like I'm never going to be okay again and just when I think I'm starting to heal, something happens that sends me right back to a curled up ball in bed crying my eyes out until I fall asleep. I thought terminating the pregnancy was the best choice for mine and my SO's situation, but honestly, I don't think any other outcome could have been worse than this. He doesn't even want to be intimate anymore because the last time we were, I got pregnant, and it lead us to the messed up place we are in now. I just feel so broken in every way. I don't know what else to do.