i don’t really know who else to go to about this. my anxiety’s so bad. i don’t have anywhere to go, both houses are so bad. is it better to get abused mentally and sometimes physically? or is it better to be in a completely unstable household and have daily panic attacks? i have no one. dad; you barely feed me. i’m only 14, i don’t know how to really make my own food. please stop constantly yelling. please stop hitting me. mom; i’ve made it so clear that i don’t want a relationship until you get better. last time i lived with you, you tried to kill yourself in front of me. you told me it was my fault, i was only 11.

i don’t know why i made this post, i guess i just want to get it out somewhere?