So I’ve been in a very toxic relationship with my mom for 19 years, she’s been a good mother in some aspects don’t get me wrong but she was & is toxic. When I was little she would never let me talk to her without her getting an attitude or saying that I talk too much, she’s talked bad about my siblings (both older, one is 33 the other is 40) just to put us all against each other just so later in fights she could throw the “nobody wants to be around you, I’m the only one you got” card, I have really bad memory & she knows this & I’ve caught her thousands of times trying to manipulate my memory just to get her way & that alone is scary. She always call me names & I can’t even ask her questions that I need to know in life without her getting an attitude &/or lashing out at me calling me a retard & not answering my questions, she also criticizes EVERYTHING I do, I never do chores right according to her when I always try my hardest & NEVER says thank you. She hates when I’m happy, I’m convinced of it.. whenever I’m on a skype call with my boyfriend (of 4 years, long distance, met twice irl) THATS when she chooses to talk to me & then she says I ignore her if I tell her I’m on a call. Yesterday she told me to clean the garage so I do it, I did it while on the phone with my boyfriend (wearing earbuds so my hands were free, I never touched my phone) & she flipped out that we were on the phone while I cleaned, afterwards, I show her the garage (I was proud bc it looked very good) she looks at it & then sees the edge of our dog gate with a little moss & she instantly says “YOU DID A HORRIBLE JOB. YOU DIDNT EVEN TRY & ITS ALL BC U WERE ON THE PHONE” I snapped & told her to be grateful for once & she flipped out more, she texted my boyfriend (they never talk) sent him four audios on FB talking bad about me & how I disrespect her & don’t know how to do anything in her house and that she needed his help to make me a better person. My boyfriend knows what she’s made of, my older sister (40) has told him how my mom like manipulating people & she told me that she was trying to get sympathy from my boyfriend to see if he defended her, I told him to block her. She punches me & told me I have to move out, I know it’s a bluff bc she’s done it COUNTLESS of times before, but I don’t care if its a bluff.. I’m done, when I was 15 she drove me to the point of cutting, I was diagnosed with depression & anxiety & she said that me cutting my wrist was just me “playing the victim” & “looking for attention” the day I was going to commit suicide (by overdosing with my antidepressants) that’s when I met my boyfriend, he texted me & my interest of a stranger texting me peeked (I was 15 he was 16-17 at the time) so.. I’m 19 now, my boyfriend is 20 & we’re over this bullshit.. I live in Puerto Rico & my boyfriend lives in Ohio.. so if everything goes according to plan I’ll be leaving this toxic environment by August this year, my boyfriends parents have an old house that they’re willing to rent to us & we want to rent it along with a couple who are also friends of our & we can call split the rent.. please wish me luck.. it’s the first time I ever leave my beautiful island.... but I’m willing to do it with him.. I’m really worried to if anyone could give me tips &/or encouragement I’ll be beyond grateful