2 years ago I had an ex that made me cry every day for Most of our relationship of it wasn’t him being a hoe and giving other girls attention he was giving me or abandoning me when I needed it the most it was him breaking me down beyond belief ... here are somethings he said to me

-I’m never having you around my friends anymore because your embarrassing and you act dumb

-I’ll never love you like I loved my ex it was more than sex it was a deeper connection and I’ll never love you that way

- if my bestfriend kills himself it’s your fault if he goes through with it I hope you feel guilty because you killed him (backstory his bestfriend had really bad panic attacks and me having the same I tried to help him and bring him back from the ledge but someone I got blamed for him

Deciding he didn’t want to live anymore so I was told what I was told )

- after the first time he called me embarrassing I hid my personality from him I wasn’t fun anymore and one day I let it slip while I was around one of my friends and he said “your so annoying and fake you never act like that” which hurt so much cause that was the real

Me

-my biggest insecurity was my ass I swear to you it used to make me cry and he knew that one day I was walking in front of him and he said “ew you really have no ass and laughed in my face” the rest of the day I was fighting back tears because I thought everyone was looking at me and making the same comments that crazy part is i loved the way I looked that day

The point of this is that it’s 2 fucking years later and I can’t stand the thought of myself I met this amazing guy and ruined the relationship because I felt like I wasn’t good enough that I was ugly and I didn’t see deserve love and most of all was scared to live anyone because the last time I didn’t I was broken down and blamed for someones suicide attempts it’s 2 years later and he still takes my happiness away from me

Oh and a couple of months ago he text me and says if you want to fuck lmk I’m here but don’t feel special because I sent this to all my exes

Do I even have the right to still feel bad about myself and cry about it or do I have issues cause it’s been 2 years and I’m dumb enough to

Still let it affect me