So I’ve been late for a while now and I take birth control so that’s unusual. I am only seventeen and started to worry about the possibility of pregnancy and told my boyfriend. We are safe and use condoms but sometimes we get careless or I forget to take my birth control (yes I know it’s bad to skip). Anyway I took a pregnancy test yesterday and I started to panic because there was the faintest line ever but it still seemed positive to me. There was no way I was keeping this baby, my boyfriends family and my family would’ve kicked both of us out of our homes. We decided it was best to get an abortion if need be. I took another test the next day and it said negative which was odd so I planned on taking another today. I started my period though and was so relieved until the flow was so much heavier than normal. I was in so much pain and throwing up and couldn’t see straight my head hurt so bad. I took some meds and laid down but later I went to change my tampon and a huge clump fell out. I normally have larger clumps but this was the size of my palm (I have smallish hands though). I don’t know what to say honestly. I have pcos so pregnancy is really unlikely anyway but I am beyond sad right now. Having an abortion would’ve been terrible but this hurts so much more knowing that my body can’t handle a baby. I won’t have kids. I don’t know really. It hurts in a way I didn’t know it could. I know we didn’t want to have a child this early but it still breaks my heart.