Ugh, my heart feels heavy and my mind clouded. Life is pretty damn exhausting at the moment and I don't know how to deal with it. I fucking suck at working from home basically because my job is running around and asking questions. I have no good place to sit and work either and I cannot go to work to get my stuff because I have no where to place it.

My daughter is a year old now and she's fun, but it's hard for me to keep up with her. I get frustrated. Mad. It's so hard to keep the frustration away when she won't sleep and I'm dying for any kind of break.

I wanna sleep all day, play computer, eat crap food. I just can't deal with life anymore.

My to do list in my head is a thousand pages long. I feel like a horrible mother, a poor excuse for an adult owning a home and an awful wife. I feel awful at my job, lonely as ever and my boss is pretty horrible to talk to because he expects me to have all answers. Which I don't.

I'm just so tired, depressed and lonely.