I met a guy around August and we started talking in October. Then in November I enlisted in the Army to ship out in the beginning of June. We started dating in December, both aware of when I had to leave but neither of us were really thinking about it but now it’s less than two months away and it’s kind of starting to stress me out..

I guess to give some better context, I have only been in one relationship before this, he’s been in a few but none of them ended well. He has told me I’m the first girl he’s said he’s loved but I’ve never been able to say it back. He’s thinking of this far into the long run and I’m kind of not, especially because we are both going to live a pretty far distance away pretty soon. It might be the quarantine stuff getting to me but I’ve been wanting to text him and everything less, and I’m thinking I don’t want to be in a relationship with him while I’m doing my training.

I really don’t want to hurt him because he is so sweet and caring, I don’t want to break up with him or anything just because I’m going to leave but I kind of want to do my training and everything alone. Every step I’ve taken in enlisting was before we officially started dating and it’s just kind of how I want it to stay when I’m at training if that makes sense? I just really feel unsure with everything I’m doing