No matter what I write here.. no one gonna feel the pain am feelin right now. Am so depressed

Long story short: I found out that am the side chick and that he got a GF.

I knew somth was wrong I felt because he’s hot and cold with me..

Sometimes he gives me the cold shoulder..

sometimes he reply to my texts the next day..

Lately he was answering me with one word.. I knew somth was wrong! I asked him is there anything pissing you off?

“He replied NO”

I said Alright

He didn’t contact me after that now it’s been 2 days. “Red Flag”

I FOUND out he’s acting like this with me because seems the other girl ( the main one) is giving him a hard time she’s ignoring him..

I saw on instagram that he’s writing things like begging someone and shit. (He doesn’t know that I have account Instagram)

I can’t believe I was so blind all that time...

I know him for years but we stopped talking before because I found out he was playing games.. I gave him another chance and AGAIN! But this time it’s sooo painful...

Cryingggggg when I see that he’s in love with someone else....

I don’t wanna confront him or ask!!! I feel I just wanna run far away!!!! I don’t wanna know anything about him Anymore..

I feel like tortured now... I feel heavy.... i locked myself in my room... the pain am feeling is more than physical pain..

What is making me more sad! Is not the GF part! What is making me sad how come he used to travel with me and loving me!!!!!!

Is that all acting?????!!!! I can’t believe he’s human!!

Help me.....