Sad thirty 😔

So there less than 50min till my 30th. Yay me right? Nope 👎🏽 this is not how I wanted to enter my thirty. Yes I am grateful that I’m seeing another year, grateful for my husband, grateful for my family, my job and everything that my lord has given me thus far. However I was praying that I would enter my thirty with my rainbow baby! I was just in the showering crying cause I can’t help but to believe I’ll be 30th with no babe or even pregnant 🤰🏽.

Sorry I’m just so emotional and sad that it hasn’t happened yet, it’s be 11years trying and 1 year since our miscarriage