i just feel so gosh darn broke right now.

every woman in my family got pregnant on accident, and here i am, 2 years ttc and nothing ..

and if i try to talk to any of them about it (like my sister that pretty much looks at a man and gets pregnant) they all act completely shocked.

i was facetiming my mom and she asked if i had anything to tell her and i said no and then she got pissed off and said “i’m not going to wait forever for you to have my grandchildren, are you sure you guys are doing it right ?”

AND (this is kinda whatever but i figured i’m venting so i might as well include it) my husband is a ginger, and my mom keeps saying “i don’t want any redhead babies so make sure you cook up a good one”

if i could “cook up” ANY i would

the worst part is this is starting to affect my hubby more than usual and he’s been getting pissed off too.

i got af and he was so upset he just sat in the bedroom in the dark for an hour. plus he hears what my mom says to me about it and every time it just ends in a yelling match between the both of them.

both of his parents don’t even dare ask us anymore. his sister had two and one on the way since we first told them we were trying. they were so excited (bc hubby’s the only male in the family to carry on the name) and now it’s like the forbidden subject, i even tried opening up to his mom about it once and she was basically trying to change the subject the whole time.

idk maybe im just feeling really lonely in all of this right now, i have no girl friends or anyone i can talk to about this stuff,,,

i’m sorry for anyone that is suffering from this, especially the ones who have been trying longer than us.

i truly hope this is the year for all of you.