how to make it more enjoyable ?

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so .. ive kinda struggled with feeling super good during masturbating and doing things with my bf like over the phone lol. during sex, i can cum multiple times and feel amazing during the whole thing, but when its just me, it's different.. i feel like, i just do it all for my bf and trying to please him so i never can actually enjoy it for myself (over the phone like sexting and all). but ive tried a few times, just doing it on my own and trying to enjoy it but i cant seem to orgasim or cum like i can during sex. i think most of it is because in order to feel super good and get to that point, i need one on one, like intimacy, i feel like i need to feel that other persons touch, etc. i kinda even lose my sex drive, like the only way im 100% in the mood, is when were in person ... so if any of yall have struggled with it too and have some advice on how to make it better, comment or message me, thank you !!