Still having a hard time

I had an abortion 7 years ago, when I was 15. I thought I had dealt with my emotions surrounding it... I have been going to counseling on and off for 2 years and am able to speak way more openly about it. My husband and I started trying to conceive about 8 months ago. I have not been ovulating on my own since getting off the pill 10 months ago and have been on all sorts of meds/in and out of the OB, etc. Sometimes I just want to cry. TTC is hard enough, but then the emotions from this terminated pregnancy seem to add to it. Any positive stories about TTC after having an abortion would be helpful to boost my mood ❤️