Okay so I’m only going to write this once but I’ve been best friends with my ex since we started dating and now that we’ve broken up I really wish that we were exes that didn’t talk as often as we do. He broke up with me because he developed feelings for another girl and honestly he really treated my feelings like shit during that time when he would constantly be talking about their relationship when I told him not to and then he would guilt trip me by saying stuff like “but you’re my best friend, if I don’t tell you then who can I tell” well long story short things didn’t end well between them and now he’s been in a depressive state ever since. He was already showing signs of depression before but it really pushed him on edge after he was dumped and now he’s been really emotionally draining on me. He was toxic during our relationship too but it’s been getting so much worse when he tells me he’s going to kill himself constantly and then he says that he feels like don’t care about him because I don’t feel like talking sometimes and I’ve reached a point where I don’t know what to do. I really wish we could just have a nice casual relationship as friends but part of me is just thinking that cutting him off is the right answer. The problem is that everytime I do get close to cutting him off he says that I’m just the same as everyone else that left him and that he has nothing left to live for which just guilt trips me into staying. I can’t tell any of my friends this because he made me hide our relationship and nobody knew that we dated but I really do want to be there for him. He won’t seek professional help trust me there a whole story behind that but he makes me feel like being his friend is a job and that I need to fulfill all these obligations or else I’m a bad and unsupportive friend. He only texts me when he needs emotional support and when I tell him he doesn’t care about me he says that “it’s hard for him to care about anyone rn” which I think is a shitty excuse. I just really needed to get this off my chest and honestly I just needed to know whether I’m a bad person or not for thinking that he’s a bit of a nuisance because of how he drains me so often.